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小客廳裡的講話，感覺好像有點逞強，「維持目前的狀態也算個性的一部份」想來有點偏執，其實沒有什麼是一定的，包括我自己，是這樣。

也許希望再也不要跟任何人起衝突，一種表面的妥協，因為既然是自己的問題那就不需要打擾誰，日常工作的最低標準和自己作為一個人的特質分別並立（或許因為完美的默契從來就不存在）。那個問題只有自己才能解決，正如同決定一種生存的方式和想念一個人一樣，從來就是非常私密並且個人的事情。

所以下雨也沒有什麼不好。

缺氧

總有什麼會在最後那邊等著，堅強的人就會看見，即使十分孤單。

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有一些疲倦不知道從何講起。

既有的人和事，排列組合成不同的序列，挑戰著所能忍耐的最大的限度。有時候是信念的挑戰，有時則是人性。（很爛的事情永遠不會在想結束的時候就結束）。

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每一天都是這樣的過，這答案到底是太簡單還是太複雜？真難懂。不過即使什麼都想不出來，還是可以先睡覺的吧。

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「彼此加油，繼續強顏歡笑，只有我們知道…。」

一半

跑步的心理負擔，多半都是從要求自己要跑一定的圈數開始的，以5圈（400公尺）的距離來說，一半…跑完第三圈就覺得應該沒問題了，剩下的兩圈比開始的兩圈來的輕鬆，跑完第四圈剩一半，第五圈再一半200公尺、100公尺，最後就連體力好的時候臨時要增加幾圈都是很OK的，因為沒有了負擔。

這就是一半的距離理論，即使花費相同的時間，後一半常常比前一半簡單很多。

回程比去成簡單很多。下樓比上樓簡單很多。

同理可證，從2006年到2008年也會簡單很多。

幹，拼了。

貢寮海洋音樂祭事件

貢寮海洋音樂祭事件，簡單講兩個重點：

一、海洋音樂祭不是一定要給角頭作，得標與否應該回歸競爭機制來談：既然是北縣府BOT的案子，就沒有一定要交給角頭做的道理。誰都可以提案競爭，理想上是出錢的人（北縣府、貢寮鄉）依照活動需求，評選出適合承辦的單位。所以應該要關切的是貢寮鄉公所徵選過程有沒有瑕疵？是否如外界所言因為開標時間不當導致甄審委員缺席？當然這跟政黨也沒有關係，北縣早就換黨執政了。

二、音樂祭的未來和招標事件是兩回事：由官方經費舉辦任何活動，原則上是不能有售票的考量，無可厚非。但經營音樂祭應該長遠思考，官方退出、民間辦理是可行的方向，我想圈內人都同意售票考量是長久經營之道，這是讓音樂祭健康化的方式，所以應該趁機灌輸樂迷們支持角頭的理念和付費的觀念，但這跟招標事件無關，跟民視無關，硬要混為一談只會讓社會大眾誤解各自的立場，雙方各說各話，落得跟政客一樣嘴臉，何必？

如果我們都熱愛海洋和搖滾樂，都曾關切貢寮沙灘因為核四興建而流失了多少，都希望台灣有超棒的海洋音樂祭，那麼請在支持張四十三之前先想清楚這些事，先瞭解自己反對什麼、要什麼，這才是重點吧。

TADPOLE’S PROMISE

一個看了不知道說什麼才好的故事....

by Jeanne Willis & Tony Ross:

Where the willow meets the water a tadpole met a caterpillar. They gazed into each other's tiny eyes ... and fell in love. She was his beautiful rainbow, and he was her shiny black pearl. "I love everything about you," said the tadpole. "I love everything about you," said the caterpillar. "Promise you'll never change." "I promise," he said.

But as sure as the weather changes, the tadpole could not keep his promise. Next time they met, he had grown two legs. "You've broken your promise," said the caterpillar. "Forgive me," begged the tadpole. "I couldn't help it. I don't want these legs ... all I want is my beautiful rainbow." "All I want is my shiny black pearl. Promise me you'll never change," said the caterpillar. "I promise," he said.

But as sure as the seasons change, the next time they met - he had grown arms. "That's twice you've broken your promise," cried the caterpillar. "Forgive me," begged the tadpole. "I could not help it. I do not want these arms ... all I want is my beautiful rainbow." "And all I want is my shiny black pearl. I will give you one last chance," said the caterpillar.

But as surely as the world changes, the tadpole could not keep his promise. The next time they met - he had no tail. "You have broken your promise three times, and now you have broken my heart," said the caterpillar. "But you are my beautiful rainbow," said the tadpole. "Yes, but you are not my shiny black pearl. Goodbye." She crawled up the willow branch, and cried herself to sleep.

One warm moonlit night, she woke up. The sky had changed, the trees had changed. Everything had changed ... except for her love for the tadpole. Even though he'd broken his promise, she decided to forgive him. She dried her wings and fluttered down to look for him. Where the willow meets the water, a frog was sitting on a lily pad.

"Excuse me," she said. "Have you seen my shiny black ..." But faster than she could say 'pearl', the frog leapt up and swallowed her, in one great gulp. And there he waits ... thinking fondly of his beautiful rainbow ... wondering where she went.

博客來的《Tadploe's Promise》簡介

需要夏天

1.和出氣的沙包，戴上拳擊手套，用剛好的姿勢把你踢的非常非常遠。

2.「為什麼吃藥不能配啤酒或優酪乳？」

3.假設一個不好也不壞的狀態，像在體內壓制得剛好的感冒病毒，症狀沒有外顯，但是病毒仍然存在。厲害的話就不靠吃藥得自己好起來。

4.疲倦的他眼睛紅紅的但是表情很堅強，很想叫他不要被垃圾之類的鳥事影響心情但沒講。

5.每一天都像沙灘上莫名溫熱的風，安靜，你曉得是那樣的氣氛但省略計較。

6.The beach boys的wouldn’t it be nice是恰如其份的處方，也可能是旋律裡面的成分和氣味剛好掩蓋了適當的黑暗。

「那按play。」